My Journey with the Lord: Still Learning the “Having Faith” Lesson

Sometimes I go back and read some of my posts- the more positive ones, and think “wow, did I write that?”  The only explanation is that it is Jesus because I am not that smart, and I struggle with staying positive.  Sometimes I find myself falling back into old habits of fear and worry, but Jesus usually convicts me back into shape.  He blesses me with revelations and more understanding than I deserve at times.  Tonight was one of those moments.  So I come across the verse Psalm 27:13-14 quite a lot when I ask the Lord to speak to me, and I am always like why does He keep telling me to “Wait on the Lord…”  Patience is obviously not a virtue of mine, but something that He is cultivating into my personality.  Tonight I unintentionally in a study that must have been completely Spirit led learned what this study means. It means Have FAITH and BELIEF that Jesus will take care of you.  Take all those worries and fears and struggles and anxieties and give them to the Lord.  He will take them from you.  So what are the practical steps to do this?

  1. Pray, and then Let it go and Let God.  After you pray, do whatever you need to do to just let it go, but move on.  I would strongly suggest a “worry box” which is a bow where you write down your anxieties and worries and leave them in this box for seven days , then take them out and throw away the ones that have sorted themselves out during the course of that week.  What most people find is that most problems work out their solutions within seven days with little to  no input from us.  God does truly have our best intentions at heart, and He can take care of us.
  2. Next you Carry On- Eat, Pray, Love – you know the whole book thing, but do it for real.  You carry on enjoying your family meals and your meals by yourself watching a movie (if you are single like me), you enjoy your family time, You go to work and do your best, You help others who need it (the essence of Love), and you study your Bible.
  3. Seriously, pick a Bible study and do it faithfully.  Do it to learn the Lord’s word and put it into practice.
  4. Next, you keep on doing whatever it was that the Lord has already placed in your life for whatever season that you are in.  You do it wholeheartedly and without reservation or resentment.  You just keep doing your best at it until He gives you something new.  And then you wait for Him to put something new in your life.  (Believe me, before this evening I was seriously struggling with this whole “Wait on the Lord” thing)
  5. And then you know what you do:  Pray, Study, Eat, and Love some more.  Believe that the Lord will solve all your problems in His time.  Believe that He loves you so much that He cares whether or  not you have a good day.  Believe that He has freed you from the entanglements of this world.
  6. Then just LIVE!  HE made this earth for us to enjoy!  That means that it is ok to Have Hobbies and Enjoy yourself.  It is ok to visit with friends, and eat your favorite foods.  Just go LOVE the LIFE that He gave you, and LIVE it to the Fullest because no one can do it for you.

My Journey with the Lord: Having Faith

One time last week when I prayed, I asked the Lord what my next step was and He said “have faith.”  Now then that is usually easier said than done.  It is all about “Letting Go and Letting God.”  That means in every aspect of your life to let go of the fear that can so easily entangles us : the fear of being alone if you are single, the fear of failure if you have failed many times in the past, the feat of financial insecurity, etc…I spent the other night going back and looking at my most recent posts and then my later posts when I really started hearing from the Lord.  I realized that being motivated out of fear to serve the Lord is wrong, we should be motivated out of respect and Love of the Lord- nothing more.  Maybe you disagree, but consider if we were to follow Jesus example on the cross and how He died for us- He did it out of Love not fear of God.  He loved us so much that He suffered on the cross for our sins.  It took me a awhile and I had to really work to understand the Love that motivates us to action rather than the fear.  I could see my transition in my own posts from earlier to more recent posts as the Lord changed my mindset.  I promise that the Lord can transform lives.  It doesn’t mean that all your problems will be fixed overnight, or that every doubt/insecurity disappears overnight.  It doesn’t mean that you will instantly speak in a different tongue, or not stumble every now and then.  It doesn’t mean that you won’t fall on your face sometimes.  But what it does mean is that the Lord will walk with you every step of the way.  He will never leave you nor forsake you.  He is in it for the long haul, so if the King of Kings and Lord of Lords loves you that much and will never give up on you then don’t give up on yourself!

My Journey with the Lord: Proverbs 30

I had a dream the other night and the specific words and numbers in it led me to Proverbs 30.  For my own reasons, I chose this site to try and understand this Proverb, but I am still waiting on full understanding from the Lord.  I dare not say I know all of what He was trying to tell me, but I do know it was from Him as it references some thoughts I have had that I have not voiced.  For the most part, only the Lord knows my most personal thoughts.

Let me know what you think!

My Journey with the Lord: Dream of Fortune

The other night I had a dream where I was at my bank and they gave me a dog dish of pennies- old pennies.  I am not sure why but they were going to get rid of them or something, and gave me these pennies to include in my deposit.  So I went back there with the tellers and they were teaching me to count and check my own deposit, and as I counted my change some dimes (silver coins) that were mixed into the pennies kept shrinking and i would set them aside as I could not count them for they were no longer real money.  Other coins were appearing as I counted as well to the point where I had stacks of quarters and half dollars etc, but I could never quite get it all counted.

Now let me stop at that part and tell you what I understand.

Fortunes on earth will never last, and money disappears quickly.  You will never have enough money- you will earn it and spend it so quickly that it will become this vicious cycle of wanting more.  The true Fortune we should seek is God.  He is the only fortune that cannot be destroyed by rust or moth, and the fortune that will not disappear.  That is the main point of that part of the dream.  Seek God above all else, He is the only Fortune worth Pursuing.  Make Him the Priority of your life and exalt Him.

 Now also I believe that it is telling us that the value of American money will soon diminish.  Keep an eye on our financial system.  Be prepared to survive without money.  The money that we are being told at the banks etc is a lie.  There is no money at the banks.  Everything exists on paper or electronically only.


Now in the next part of the dream I end up staying with one of the tellers as the others leave and we are closing this bank for the day.  Now as we wait for a lady to get back to finish closing us down , 3 men come in.  One was a man named Gerald who I used to visit in the nursing home, and I was like “who let you out?”  The other was a very poor man who did have money, but was in rags, and the third was an arrogant man who was obviously very rich and would not listen to us when we told him “sir we are closed.”  Now the teller- young man that was with me saw this third man and I was trying to tell him we had been closed for thirty minutes he was like “don’t talk to him like that or I will lose my job.”

So what was interesting is I did not recognize this individual but he was wearing a professional lab coat with a name on it of one of our local business owners.  I will not put it on here, but the Hebrew meaning of the his name “Robert” is what led me to realize that God was telling me He is the only Fortune worth seeking.


Now my first thought upon waking up is there was some kind of parable hidden in my dream, and I thought maybe it had something to do with showing favoritism to the rich over the poor, or something.  However, in my dream we helped all three of the men equally except I did not like the rich man in this dream.  So then I started researching stories about three men in the Bible.  I came up with some stories in Daniel about Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego.  I also got the story in Matt. 19 in my research and the story of Lazarus and the Rich man in Luke 16:19-31.  Now I am not going to lie and tell you that I understand this last part of the dream for I do nott.  However, the first part and the lesson I am sure of and felt it was confirmed to me to share it with you. 

So All I can Reiterate is Seek God as your Fortune not money.  Glory to Father God, Lord Jesus, and the Holy Spirit.